10My life could be changing.
This is an unedited personal post. It gets very wordy.
Filmmakers, video artists, and creatives of all genres - I could use some advice.
The shoot starts today (the 12th) at 9PM, takes place at North and Farifield at Cermak Produce, and will take place over four days. If you’re interested, please message me for the contact info. I’ve been told it’s a pretty casual production, so even if you’re only available for one day, I’m sure they’d be grateful for the help.
Sorry for the late details! Only just got ‘em.
We definitely didn’t win anything last night, but I am very proud to have worked with such a hard-working cinematographer. If any of you live in Chicago and are looking for an ambitious and talented DP to work with, look up this guy.
The cons of last night:
- Our audio was too quiet and our image was too dark
- We were competing against some very seasoned and well-equipped professionals who had a grossly unfair advantage
- I was petrified and near tears the entire time I had to be in front of people for the Q&A
The pros of last night:
- Actually “competing” against said very seasoned and well-equipped professionals with the unfair advantage, as if we were their peers
- Brian and I were definitely the youngest of the filmmakers, and I was the only girl (among the filmmakers shown last night)
- Amanda Peters, the organizer of Chicago’s 48 Hour, is a total sweetheart lady and definitely knows how to deal with young and pissed-off filmmakers as well as a dead crowd
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On a less optimistic side, the whole “but at least you finished it and made something, that’s an accomplishment, right?” sentiment is total bullshit; though I appreciate my friends and family and fellow tumblrers for their esteem, I feel statements like that totally undermine the pain of this experience, which I need to feel. I didn’t spend all that money that I barely have to “finish” something - I did it to compete with a piece that I am proud of, and I don’t think Brian or I are particularly proud of how our film screened last night.
This isn’t a particularly negative experience, though, as it makes me want to work really hard to actually make something great next year and provide as much support for my team as I can. I’ve learned many lessons from this past week and I aim to implement them into my work as well as my daily life. I hope this will make me stronger as a person and a director/crewmember.
Thank you guys so much for your support. I’ll keep you posted on any future projects I’m able to tackle.
